Allowing My Pure Essence to Flow Forth From Within Me
I have really, really been focusing on feeling what is wanting to come through me, what that pure essence, within, says yes to. I was just sitting here meditating on this, tonight, in the wee hours of the morning, as I look over to my desk, and to the work that I wish to accomplish.
How important it is, to allow this impulse, from the essence of who I am, to first be present, and then to flow.
To deny this impulse, is to deny our true self, and, I believe, the gifts of our Soul. Yet how easy it has been, day to day, to feel this impulse, like the heartbeat of my Soul, and say… not now, not yet.
In my view, this is ultimately, the source of all pain; denying the truth of who we are. Funny enough, after we have had enough of being pushed, or of pushing away, from who we truly are, pain and tragedy, harsh and difficult circumstances, most often lead us back to the soft whisper of Soul.
Getting to Know What My Truth Feels Like
For me, pure impulse from my own essence within; from the purity of my Soul, is what comes forth, first. This is the stuff of creation – it’s raw material, before form. Rather than coming in story form, with associated details, for me this impulse is like a light packet; filled with information, codings, colors, and flow.
Gifting to myself, and allowing this impulse to flow forth from me in whatever way that I feel guided to by my inner desire, has resulted in wonderful creations from my own heart and hand.
Going Beyond the Limitation of Expectation
And, the impulse, with it’s chock full light packets, is before expectation. But what I find, is that the mind then takes these impulses, creates linear thoughts around them, includes the concept of time, attaches these impulses to points outside self in the world; be they persons, places, things, and so on.
And thus, expectations are created.
These expectations can be so far apart from the original essence of what welled up inside oneself, as to be beyond recognition of what the original impulse was about at all.
Our Pure Source Essence Carries the Energy of Creation
Creation comes out of that impulse from of our essence within, if we allow it. Creation power does not come from any thoughts alone, that the mind can put ’round it. The impulse, the essence, carries its own power with it. This is the power of unfoldment. This is it’s own nature, that will come to be.
Capturing the creation power of the true essence of a living being, and diverting it from its course, is the intent of dark forces, it is what ‘darkness’ is; it is the beginnings of our own shadow self.
Our true essence expressing from within, is none other than the will of divinity expressed through the self. It is the Light, living in incarnation as an empowered human being, which is the source of the creation power of the impulses from one’s essence, or one’s Soul. This is why the Light always prevails, and turns darkness back to light, in the end.
Being True to the Impulse of Soul
The question for me lately is this: How do I receive my own impulses from my own essence, or Soul, and be true to these impulses, and be guided to express them, without the co-option of their course by the mind, creating expectation, or dis-creating, saying, later?
How do I let the seed grow, without interference, into the beautiful whatever it is that it wishes to be? The desire of the mind to step in, and drive the bus, can be overwhelming.
For an artist, this is akin to being in the flow.
How does this desire that I have, to be the purity that I am, become a part of my daily life, from moment to moment?
Coming Forward in Our Truth, From Soul to Mind to Emotion
For me this is the essential question of my life right now. And yet as I read it back over now, I find myself asking how I could have gotten to this place, in the first place, where that who I am, requires an invitation, requires special preparation, and a special table to be set so that this part of me will come forward into its own pure expression.
Yes I need the mind, to assist me to navigate in the world. Yet I need my heart, the portal of these impulses of my pure Essence, even more.
And I’m not talking about pure emotion. The emotion comes after, after my essence sends its impulse. Then, my emotion starts to get wrapped into the thoughts my mind is making. Now this gives power to the thoughts I’m having, for as long as my emotion chooses to attach to them.
It feels that my emotions are so powerful because they are a derivative of the source essence that has passed through me, that has been placed, or is moving into, creation in the world. I feel that the distortion of expression of my essence, can create more vivid emotions, especially those negative emotions of anger, fear, and of what follows.
Simply Allowing, Simply Being, in the Sacred Space of Creation
To hold that original essence as it wishes to be held; to continue to simply be in that place of creation, and allow what wishes to unfold, to unfold through me – this is the greatest gift I can give myself as a human being. To receive the purity I am and to be this in the world. This is the gift of expression of my true self, of my Soul. This is the essence of love of my own self, requiring my guardianship and my own care.
Each moment, each day, may I find the will, and the way, to live true to the impulses of my own essence, and to receive the divinely inspired gifts of my Soul.
~ Susan V Lacerra
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